Saturday, January 20, 2007
~ 1/20/2007 11:29:00 AM ~
;yesterday, things didn't go directly to heaven,
but went directly the other way
I'm not so sure if I should write this post at first. My original thought was to hide this deep in my heart, until I forgot it completely. Still, I changed my mind. Perhaps facing the problem and trying to solve it is must more positive than just simply forgot it.
First, I had to say, was what happened last year, as in the end of last year. You figured out? Yeah, that's why. People always said it was easy to reach a level, but it was too much difficult to maintain at that position. That's what I was feeling. Yeah, it was PAST that bothered me. Because after that, I felt that this years studying was more difficult. Why? Because this years’ stuff WERE difficult? Or there's something wrong with my studying, though I worked as hard as last year. Was I just simply stressed? Or there WAS something wrong? Alas, who knew?
During Oral English lesson, we were supposed to give a speech. And it became a complete disaster, or worse, it went directly the other way. The comments were given, a nightmare, and I DID accept this comment because it was true, so I had nothing to complain. Pronunciation not clear, stiff-faced, no enthusiasm nor expression, lack of description about feelings. That’s it. It might not be a problem for someone, but it was one for me. I tried to do well, but the result was no good.
Been trying to be positive. But what happened was still a pain for me. However, there were two things flashing into my mind. One was a line from a TV play, which was “Never gives up, once you give up, you will never forgive yourself.” The other was from a novel, “Things that meant to happen will happen anyway, we must learnt to face them whenever they happen.” And I started to realize what it mean.
